Singing a new tune
I started feeling old today.
My friends will tell you I started acting old a long time ago. I can be pretty cranky for 35. I started looking old a while ago, too. Too many mornings I find myself walking awkwardly when I get out of bed, trying to shake off creakiness in the knees, stiffness in my back or the nagging pain that has moved into my shoulders.
It wasn't until today that I started feeling old. It didn't surprise me too much. With a little girl on the way, I've been looking over my shoulder for the past few weeks, just waiting for it to catch up to me. Despite my vigilance it still caught me a little off guard, overtaking me in a place I normally feel safe and confident -- the record store.
Since I hadn't been there for a while, the wife and I headed over to Orpheus Records this afternoon. In the past few years, I've found dozens of great deals on used vinyl. I rarely go with a purchase in mind. I just start looking through the bins and wait for the surprises. I've replaced old Springsteen and Stray Cats albums that suffered from overuse or neglect. I've found reissues from Johnny Burnette, Link Wray and Uncle Tupelo that I've been able to enjoy on vinyl. I've discovered some excellent folk/bluegrass albums there as well, such as Dan Crary's "Guitar" and Norman Blake's "Whiskey Before Breakfast."
Today, I walked out empty-handed.
It's not unprecedented, but it is rare. There are thousands of albums in there, just waiting for good homes. I normally adopt one or two. There were some candidates who came close to joining the family today. I looked over a Gene Vincent reissue. I pulled out an old Gordon Lightfoot album my father played a lot when I was a kid, turning it over in my hands and remembering the way those songs sounded to me. There were a bunch of great John Hartford albums (I suspect there isn't another kind). Nothing made the cut.
I supposed it could have something to do with my turntable being broken. I doubt it. It will be fixed soon, and when it is that Gene Vincent would sound great.
I say I started feeling old today because I think it was my own conscience and sense of responsibility that kept my wallet in my pocket. I've known for a while that when the Li'l' Peanut arrives I'm going to have to change my habits. Fine-tuning our music library will have to take a back seat to diapers and the college fund. But those habits hadn't changed yet, until today.
Maybe that will all change tomorrow. Maybe when I wake up I'll be convinced that we can't live any longer without owning "James Taylor's Greatest Hits" or Muddy Waters' "Anthology." It's hard to tell with me.
Part of me hopes that my self-restraint kicked in today. It's nice to know there are a few things I love even more than music.